DesolateOrc0

So, I've complained time and time again about why I abhor getting no feedback, but I never really gave a full explanation as to why. So, I guess it's time to address why I don't like it when I don't get any feedback.

Say you're in English class, and you turn in the first paper. Now, naturally, you want to see what the grade on the paper is, right? You don't care if it's the worst paper if you've ever written, or the best paper you've ever written, you want the feedback from your teacher. What if the teacher said, "You will not be receiving back any paper grades until the end of the grading session/semester," and by that, I also mean that if your school has a feature where you can see your grades online, they don't update that either. Unless you're used to this situation, you're going to be stressing out over what you made on that paper like you wouldn't believe. Now, my feelings aren't exactly this extreme, but hopefully, you see the point I'm coming across.

The point I'm getting at is this: If I did a good job or a bad job at something, how the hell am I supposed to know that if the response I get from it is silence?

Now, I'm not asking for people to critically analyze what I write, no. All I'm asking is this: I want something in the comments section, or even written as a note. Am I asking for too much? Maybe, but what I'm getting to is what I'm complaining the most about, and you probably saw this coming: Streams.

Let me get you a couple of numbers: I have 43 watchers, and 407 followers on Tumblr, meaning that 450 people at least see what I'm posting. So wait, let me get this straight: You're telling that out of 450 people (or so), not ONE person can attend a stream? Now, hold on, before you give the defending reasonings, let me say this: Yes, I know people work. Yes, I know people can't be on their computer all day long because of other various reasons. But here's my main issue with it: I stream at about 8 or 9 or so, y'know, past the point where any of those defenses are relevant? If streaming at 4:30 in the afternoon (here in Texas) worked, how come streaming to a high point of activity (8-9 PM in Texas), suddenly no one is online? I just don't get it.

And since I have no artistic skill whatsoever, I'm going to take another art that's done not in pictures, but in words: Writing. Now, what I write will be nothing groundbreaking, heck, for a while, until I figure out how Frost's story will be written out, which I'll get to in this journal, I'll be talking about certain ideas for stuff I want to do in the future. So, without further ado, let's get underway. So, essentially, starting between now and for 2016, this is basically going to do.

First things first: I just mentioned it, so I'll write it out in more detail; Frost's story is going to be off hiatus, but it'll be slowly written... differently. Rather than writing a chapter-by-chapter story, Frost's story will be written out like journal entries. No, not like these journals, they'll be written via the literature part of dA. I figured that they will be written this way due to my concise writing style. I'll explain more as to why exactly I don't write much on my journals (this one being an obvious exception), but to put it short, due to my nature, it's rather difficult for me to put something into thousands and thousands of words, because I feel like if I put more than I honestly feel like putting down, it just feels like filler writing. However, with diary-style writing, I feel like it's going to put my concise writing style to my advantage.

Second, I want to write an adult cartoon, but with a few key twists: There'll be a lot of journals in the future describing the cartoon from the inside-out, but I want to learn script-writing, in short. Also, none of the stories will be clichéd or anything like that. The show's genre will be mainly slice-of-life with a few episodes being comedies. And since next to writing love stories, comedy is the hardest genre to write, yeah, it'll be a while before I'll get to writing the comedic episodes.

Last but not least, starting sometime between now and the next couple of weeks, I'm going to be writing just general random stuff that allows me to write quite a bit. I will be essentially reviewing races, writing Top 10's, and if I get this stuff for my birthday, I can get around to LP'ing stuff. Oh, and as a self-help thing, there will be a to-do list at the end of these journals from now on.

To-Do List:
-Write a Top 10 Undertale OST List
-Begin writing Frost's story
-LP's?

I don't know if there's an official term to this, but I have one main problem: I have an inferiority complex.

It's the reason why, despite the fact that I've got two fics in the works... I haven't actually worked on them, cause I feel like what I write is stupid and pointless. But that's the thing: This complex I have makes me feel like everything I do, not just writing, I'm talking about playing video games, and the multitude of things that I do off the computer/game console, doesn't have a point to it.

When I get these kinds of negative thoughts, it prevents me from doing the stuff that I really like to do. Playing video games with friends? I feel like I'm the worst out of the whole group. Writing a story? I feel like people are going to find it terrible when I hit the "Submit" key. And Let's Plays? I feel like I'm going to look like an idiot playing the games I love, so I just don't bother with it.

Also, just as a side thing, I know that I don't have extremely long journals, cause of my really concise writing style, but what I wrote is the best way I can put things into words.

Oh, and one more thing that slipped my mind (because of course it did) : This is the main reason I abhor getting no feedback. It makes me feel like what I've done on here and dA feel like it's just stupid and pointless, and worse off... I feel like a complete idiot.

Well, unless the streams I'm going to have tonight and tomorrow night actually have people coming over, and talking in the chat, I'm done here on dA.

Note me if you wanna talk.

There's nothing going on in this page, so I don't see anything better to do.